Keepsakes and Letting Go

What I find for the past 4 years that I have been blogging, is that, many times I have no idea what my post will be up to the very day of posting, then something happens, something comes to mind, and just like that I have a post. Oh the joys of blogging!!!

I am not a pack rat as I like getting rid of stuff I have no use for. I like space to breathe, space for air to circulate and so I have a limit for the time that I keep stuff for, just in case I might need them for something. When that time elapses and I have not yet find use for the items, I bid them farewell.

With this said, this morning while my husband and the kids were still sleeping, I decided to do a little cleaning up. The thing with kids is that there is no order with them around, things are just generally chaotic and out of place, and as someone who likes order, I have to be making special effort to embrace and appreciate this chaos. I have to find it beautiful too, because, after all, would I be writing such a post without having my beautiful chaotic children around.

Oops, I strayed a bit here, so here I go back on track. While cleaning up this morning, I stumbled across my pregnancy tests, each still baring the signs which herald news of the conception of our three miracles. I took  them out and looked at them, still remembering how we reacted when we saw the positive sign on each test. I looked over at the children in their beds sleeping and I felt an overwhelming sense of being highly favoured by The Almighty once again.

These tests are going nowhere I thought, I will never throw them out. One of the reasons I kept them in the first place, is to incorporate them in the memories we want to soon set up for each child.

I know there are other reasons why I kept them. It might not be as easy to put into words as the first, but I am thinking that I have held on to them because I do not want to let go of any part of my struggles with infertility. I kept them because I also do not want to let go of any part of my triumph over this life altering condition.

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When one of my Pastors told me some time ago, that my struggles will one day help others, I did believe him, but I had no idea to what degree.

I wrote in a post recently, how a friend, in a telephone conversation acknowledged us for a fight well fought. She was speaking about our Infertility struggles and how we came out of it with two beautiful children.

I am happy to report that the acknowledgements continue to come in. The other day my husband ran into a former teacher of his, and when the conversation turned to his family life, he mentioned that he had great struggles to have children, but after approximately a decade long of struggling, he now has two. His former teacher was so taken by this and remarked how incredible it was that we held out hope for so long, as he knows of cases where people have simply given up after struggling for a much shorter time. He then asked of my husband, “Can I use your story?.”

On another recent occasion, a Church sister asked my permission to hold our daughter, shortly afterwards, I heard her said, You and your husband’s story is a testament to the fact that where there is faith, God  keeps his promise. I was at a lost for words and was deeply moved. I did write in the first post of my ‘Grateful Wednesday’ segment that I am grateful for my infertility struggles and this is one of the many reasons.

Let me not hesitate then, to use this opportunity to encourage those of you who are facing challenges in your lives. Though you are probably not at the point where you can see the good in your situations (Yes, I can attest to the fact that there is, most times, some good in your struggles), just hang in there and remain expectant because sooner or later, it will be revealed to you. In the mean time though, ask yourself, what is this struggle teaching me and in what way will this knowledge make me a better person to the point where I can even use it to help others.

BE ENCOURAGED, THEREFORE.





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