I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT I FIND MYSELF ON THIS ROAD AGAIN!!!!!

hildren are a gift from the Lord; they are a reward from him.

Children born to a young man are like sharp arrows in a warrior’s hand

Psalm 127: 3 and 4

“HOPE MAKES ALL THE DIFFERENCE"

Three years ago, after giving birth to my son, if anyone ever told me that I would be in the position of watching others get pregnant with their second child, and wondering if there will be a second one for me, I would hasten to tell them they were fibbing. I say this because my thought at that time, was that I was over and done with infertility.

There were four of us who were pregnant and the same time and now most are on the way with their second child and once again I am here with mixed feelings.  I am happy for them, but a little bit jealous that I am not once again sharing this precious journey with them.

I am trying to console myself by thinking that I am far older than these ladies, and also carrying around far less eggs, which is further complicated by PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) and so there definitely odds against me. This is so far working, but at times I am reminded that life is so not fair.

I am so grateful to God for my son, and I know many of you who are struggling to have even one child, is probably thinking that I am being a bit ungrateful.  That is alright because I have said that about persons as well, during my struggles with infertility, and currently I do feel that way as well, but there are indeed times when I look at my son and want for him what I had in such abundance as a child, siblings to grow up and interact with. It is my personal opinion that a part of a child is missing when they do not have such opportunity, as I do believe this is a big part of who we become as adults.

We are not giving up hope though, we will continue trying and if no stork turns up, we will actively pursue adoption, as this has been in our plans for a while, having made the decision that our son will not go through life alone.

LET US LIVE EACH DAY LIKE IT IS OUR LAST.

Children are a gift from the Lord; they are a reward from him.

Children born to a young man are like sharp arrows in a warrior’s hand

Psalm 127: 3 and 4

“HOPE MAKES ALL THE DIFFERENCE"

HEY HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING?  JUST DROPPING IN AGAIN.

I lost an ex-coworker recently and she is being laid to rest today. When I got the news, I just could not believe it, she was the same age as I am. I dreamt it too and it got me thinking about my own mortality.

She died of a brain tumor and seemingly had no symptoms to alert her that she had this condition and so she died suddenly.  Those deaths, are really the hardest, as you have absolutely no time to prepare.

I cannot imagine, after all the heartaches of infertility, not being around to see my son grow up, to be a part of his milestones and so I know I must take care of myself, I must live life one day at a time, because after-all, that’s really all we are given. I must aim to reduce stress in my life and foster a thankful heart, even for the smallest of blessings and I challenge you all to do this as well.

I most of all, must value and nurture the relationships I have been blessed with, both family and otherwise, because we really do not know when those we are connected to will be snatched away from us, because “no one is promised tomorrow.”

Rest in peace Marvelette,.you are gone too soon and will be remembered by many.